◐ Medication5 days ago
Recalibrate?
Focus has been difficult today. I also had a check-in with Rak that felt suspiciously like my old PIP days.
Took it as usual
◐ Medication1 week ago
New cycle
Still the same dosage, but I really wanna watch for efficacy this month.
Took it as usual
✎ Journal1 week ago
What motivates me?
I've been considering what motivates me. I'm not sure yet. I've spent so much time going back and forth with ChatGPT about my skills and career aspirations. Truth is, I don't care about advancing in my career. I care about earning more money by doing something that I don't hate. That's all its really been. But now I'm wondering if it's worth pursuing another job or sticking with the stability I currently having and using any extra time I have to pursue creative endeavors that can lead to extra income.
My ultimate goal is to get away from a 9-5. It often feels like the safer, more predictable route. That's probably why I put my energy into that instead of what I want to do (other than ADHD making it hard to stick to things). That's something I need to actually really think about, though. When will I actually pursue these things? The writing, the apps, whatever else? When? I keep putting shit off. Getting healthy included! Maybe it's time to stop doing that.
Is there a way I can create some balance? Keep gaining new skills and pursue a higher paying job while going after the other things I want? Just feels so hard. Not enough time in the day. Not enough energy. What the hell do I do about that?
Maybe try to tackle these questions one at a time. First time. How do I get more energy?
Hmmm. Might be my thing for the week.
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